Just one of the many many memories. . .

This is a poem I wrote a long time ago. I had originally planned to post it here, but then, I had kind of given it to a friend who wished to give it to his ex-girlfriend. As it turned out, he never got a chance to give it to her. And now, I regret I ever shared this with him in the first place. Because my friend has made an exit from my life.
He has been mentioned here on this blog innumerable times. He has inspired a lot of my writing. But our friendship is over now. I am shattered, yes, but I do believe that something good comes out of every horrible thing life throws at us. I will miss him terribly; I don't know whether I will ever stop missing him. I totally broke down when he called things off. I didn't even know that friendships could be 'called off' in much the same way as romantic relationships. But apparently, they can.
He used to read my writing earlier, this 'ex-friend' of mine. He was in fact the first person whose opinion I liked to get and valued. And it would make me happy that even though he hates to read, he would never refuse me. He liked to find spelling mistakes in everything I wrote. But he will probably never read this now because he is not even on my Facebook friends list from where he usually accessed my blog.
To the friend I will miss for the rest of my life and would do anything to win back, this one is for you (yet again). And I really am very sorry about everything (yet again). Perhaps this is the reason why you never got around to giving it to her. It was destined to be given to YOU. By me.)


The world rushes past, in a complicated haze
While I stand still, frozen in a daze
My mind is a mess,
Like a junkyard, holding more than it can contain
My heart is worse off,
tearing apart, screaming in pain.
Never had I imagined, things would come to this
That such misery would take away my bliss

Every second I wonder, what went wrong so suddenly
Our journey together seemed to be going so smoothly
I still love you
Despite how you’ve cut yourself away
I miss you
Every moment, be it night or day
What we shared was so special, so pure, so rare
That now it’s impossible, not to care.

When you were by my side, my world was complete
If life’s a song, you were my rhythm, my beat
But since you’ve left,
I’m weak inside, shattered beyond repair
There’s no more song,
Just a throbbing pain, impossible to bear
I live in constant hope, that maybe you’ll return
For you, I wait, I pine, I yearn


p.s. I know the poem is a romantic one, not a friendly one. But the point is that he had liked it. And since he has no more use for it, I thought I might as well use it for it's originally intended purpose and publish it here.
I will never stop hoping to have him back in my life one day. . .In the meantime, this devastating despair of losing him is bound to inspire even more of the words that flow out of my heart and fill these virtual pages.